It was a pretty uneventful weekend, I planned on looking for a new place to live but found several diversions along the way. I procrastinate because it's a bittersweet occasion for me. Now that I'm single and carefree again, my boys are growing up and moving on. I'll miss them terribly and wish them luck in the future - and a great housekeeper.
Less than a year ago I spent most all my free time with Joey and/or Jared. Last Sunday was the first time our whole group of friends were together since my birthday - in March. And 2/3 of us live together. We were celebrating Manuel's birthday. Manuel brought Lori, his co-worker, along to join in the festivities. (Hi Lori, now I know you read this.) He introduced her to me:
"Hey Jennifer, this is Lori. She reads your blog."
That, my friends, was a first for me. Don't get me wrong, I've met a few people that read my incoherent ramblings but all were with some form of prior communication or feedback. I had no idea Lori even existed, she had never commented before. Yet, she knew all about me. And I was worried.
A huge portion of me is so eager to please, I thrive off completing the job (what ever it may be) perfectly. Like most of us, approval is my validation. But it shouldn't always be that way.
Lori was a nice sweet girl and I didn't talk to her. Because I was vulnerable. Completely exposed.
I can't care what anyone thinks, I have to stick my neck out in order to get anywhere. But you'll have to take me as I am, perfectly flawed.
Which brings me to a quote from my favorite book, "She's Come Undone", by Wally Lamb:
"I ain't offering you happily-ever-after. I'm offering you ... happily - maybe - sometimes - ever-after. Sort of. You know, with warts and shit."
Ok Lori seeing that we've both been quiet, maybe next time let's talk to each other...mmmm kkkk?
Photo Recap of the Night
Manuel thought Joey and I were taking shots with him. Jennifer doesn't do shots. Joey wasn't having it either. He had the waitress bring us shots of water with salt and lime, she brought Manuel the real deal.
Ouch, that looks rough!
Ours were pretty smooth!
Eric and Jared were in on it.
Haha! That's so fucked up. Tell Manuel he has a sympathizer now.
Posted by: Kris | 09/12/2005 at 11:07 PM
It's always nice to have some thin veneer of privacy, even in a public forum.
Posted by: Howard Johnson Bellhop | 09/13/2005 at 09:15 PM
Kris: He certainly needs one!
HJB: Yeah, sure. I had you at hello.
;o)~
Posted by: Jenn | 09/22/2005 at 01:35 PM
Kris: He certainly needs one!
HJB: Yeah, sure. I had you at hello.
;o)~
Posted by: Jenn | 09/22/2005 at 01:36 PM